Really??

To put it lightly, I am very disappointed after our appointment this morning. The doctor who I saw today, and on Wednesday, is not part of the regular practice and therefore doesn't know our 4.5 year long story. She lowered my injections for the last two days because she did not want there to be too many follicles. Well, in our situation we need as many as we can get for the IUI to work. As Dr. W said at our last visit we need plenty of targets, not just one. After lowering the dosage, I went in this morning and only had one good follicle at 18 mm. Fabulous. With the less expensive treatment, we had 5 follicles that worked last July and then 3 follicles last month. However, went we "go all out" with the injections the new doctor is conservative and we end up with one. I was beyond frustrated and couldn't even talk to the doctor, so Rich went in and talked to her while I got my bloodwork done. She ended up completely agreeing with us when reviewing my chart. She was frustrated and said that she would have done things differently if she had known how my body was going to respond. I know that it bothered her because as we were leaving she was still going over the chart. A few hours later I got a phone call from the doctor. She wanted to contact me personally rather than leaving a message for me to retrieve to let me know that my estrogen level had dropped (not good). So, she said to go ahead and do a booster shot of two amps since I had some left to see if we can get the smaller follicles to grow a little before I do my HcG injection this evening, which induces ovulation. We'll see if by some miracle the smaller follicles which were around 12mm grow any today. If they are not larger than 14 mm there is very little hope of them containing a mature egg. We are scheduled for an IUI Sunday morning with the same new doctor. I think Rich scared her a little today, so she is going to check the follicle size again on Sunday before the IUI. The only thing we can do is try to be positive, but it is beyond frustrating to put all of this time, effort, and money into a cycle that seems to have gone down the drain. I am tired of being poked and prodded and driving back and forth to appointments, but if it works it will be worth it in the end.